GISELE`S GIRLFRIEND MADE THIS. (:

2006-11-26T14:59:00.000+08:00

Will not be using blogspot for now, currently using livejournal instead-it will be kept updated. So ya, happy finding. (=

Loves

2006-11-20T16:19:00.000+08:00

Breathe in for luck, breathe in so deep.
This air is blessed, you share with me.
This night is wild, so calm and dull.
These hearts, they race from self-control.
Your legs are smooth as they graze mine.
We're doing fine, we're doing nothing at all.

My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me,
So won't you kill me, so I die happy?
My heart is yours, to fill or burst,
To break or bury, or wear as jewelry.
Whichever you prefer.

The words are hushed, let's not get busted.
Just lay entwined here, undiscovered;
Safe in here from all the stupid questions.
"Hey, did you get some?"
Man, that is so dumb.
Stay quiet, stay near, stay close,
They can't hear, so we can get some.

My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me,
So won't you kill me, so I die happy?
My heart is yours, to fill or burst,
To break or bury, or wear as jewelry.
Whichever you prefer.

Hands down, this is the best day I can ever remember.
I'll always remember the sound of the stereo,
The dim of the soft lights, the scent of your hair,
That you twirled in your fingers.
And the time on the clock when we realized it's so late.
And this walk that we shared together.
The streets were wet and the gate was locked,
So I jumped it and I let you in,
And you stood at your door with your hands on my waist,
And you kissed me like you meant it,
And I knew that you meant it.
That you meant it, that you meant it.
And I knew that you meant it, that you meant it.

-
To remind me of you.
Won't you kiss me like you meant it?
I knew you meant it.
Loving you always.

2006-11-13T09:57:00.000+08:00

I tried blogging, like I just wrote a whole paragraph of junk but deleted it. Why am I even blogging in the first place? I've got like tons of assignments and essays to complete with not enough time. Maybe I should get back to that now, but then again I don't feel like facing Microsoft word now.
So today is a Sunday; Weekends are over.
I spent Saturday playing pool, go-karting and movies with friends. Definitely fun. Guys paintball next? hahah. (Cali trip) (= After the movie, I was in a thinking state (What's new?). Thought about lots of stuffs, mainly on someone or something. It didn't end until I hop into bed at like 4.00 in the morning. That explains why I woke up all moody. I don't think I got my thoughts sorted out yet, but in a while. LOL

Oh god, I think I should go get dressed for an event now; Running late!

Life-Changing Day; Its all Brand New.

2006-10-22T03:11:00.000+08:00

If you wanna play the game, by all means. Go ahead.

2006-10-18T11:52:00.000+08:00

Let me start off with a question:
Do you guys know what you want in life?

I don't know why, but seeing people drifting around in life provoke this thought in me. I can see how hard it is because we are caught up with what is happening right now and just live it as it goes.Even I still cannot comprehend growing up, it is like a whole new world.

At the moment, I feel completely lost on what am i living for?
I just want to be who I am.

2006-10-15T15:03:00.000+08:00

Is time moving faster or is it just me?

The blog has been dead for quite some time,maybe its time for some changes? Actually i got no idea on what to blog about. When i do,i'll be back (=

IMCHU

2006-09-20T14:12:00.000+08:00

Have You Seen This Woman?

REWARD : A all-expense unpaid trip to Seattle, Washington.

DESCRIPTION : Asian breed - approx. 160 cm tall, unpredictable weight. Usually in T-shirts and Jeans. Likes painted bears (?!)

If found, please return her to Singapore, Khatib MRT Station. Contact at 98******, thank you. Meawhile, i'll attempt to remain as anonymous as possible.

C(cube)M

2006-09-17T13:21:00.000+08:00

This blog is a bummer.
For one,i dont like to blog down my thoughts cause its so public
For two,i dont blog as a matter of fact
For three,i just like to keep things to myself

Randomly random

2006-09-03T14:48:00.000+08:00

I love you very much hunny i do.
we'll hang on to each other
IMCHU

2006-09-03T13:52:00.000+08:00

College football season has started.

And i aint in the best mood now,off i go.

2006-08-24T13:24:00.000+08:00

Share with me the blankets that you're wrapped in
Because it's cold outside cold outside it's cold out side
Share with me the secrets that you kept in
Because it's cold inside cold inside it's cold inside

And your slowly shaking finger tips
Show that your scared like me so
Lets pretend we're alone
And I know you may be scared
And I know we're unprepared
But I don't care

Tell me tell me
What makes you think that you are invincible
I can see it in your eyes that you're so sure
Please don't tell me that I am the only one that's vulnerable
Impossible

I was born to tell you I love you
Isn't that a song already
I get a B in originality
And it's true I cant go on without you
Your smile makes me see clear
If you could only see in the mirror what I see

And your slowly shaking finger tips
Show that your scared like me so
Lets pretend were alone
And I know you may be scared
And I know were unprepared
But I don't care

Tell me tell me
What makes you think that you are invincible
I can see it in your eyes that you're so sure
Please don't tell me that I am the only one that's vulnerable
Impossible

Slow down girl you're not going any wear
Just wait around and see
Maybe I'm much more you never no what lies ahead
I promise I can be anyone I can be anything
Just because you were hurt doesn't mean you shouldn't bleed
I can be anyone, anything, I promise I can be what you need

Tell me tell me
What makes you think that you are invincible
I can see it in your eyes that you're so sure
Please don't tell me that I am the only one that's vulnerable
Impossible

What a perfect song.

2006-08-13T15:02:00.000+08:00

I dont want to wake up to this fact that hasnt sink in yet but its gonna hit me soon,real soon like tomorrow? Anyhows I had a great week,lots of catching up with my friends(I'm gonna miss you guys) and the company of my love(nothing can beat spending time with you). I really wonder how will it be like without you?

after two long years,whats another four years?
I Love You Always

2006-08-07T23:02:00.000+08:00

Today is a Monday,Tomorrow is a Tuesday.
Enough of facts here,I know we all know our days(haha).One more week left,and I can already feel time rushing by,cant the world just slow its pace for awhile? The week is full though,I'm glad.
-
Anyone up for White Christmas?
-
IMCHU.

2006-08-04T17:09:00.000+08:00

Mistakes
I've heard of this saying before "All a man needs is just one mistake to destroy everything else",and i wont deny i made my mistakes in the past,neither would i be surprised if i just destroyed my present.But i'll take it because its my mistake,my fault and i admit it.Its just right that i get my deserved.Sorry for disappointing you.

I really wanna start new,afresh
maybe i will,away from this place.
because through the many lessons I've learnt
I've come out a different person

2006-08-03T23:43:00.000+08:00

Two bare feet on the dashboard
Young love and an old Ford
Cheap shades, and a tattoo, and Yoohoo bottle rolling on the floorboard
Perfect song on the radio
Sing along 'cause it's one we know
It's a smile, it's a kiss
It's a sip of wine, it's summertime
Sweet summertime...

Summertime;i'd wanna be riding on roads with you(roadtrips)
i'll have you here next summer with me,if you will.

2006-08-02T01:46:00.000+08:00

I'm already getting bored by the second day,and why? Its the results of having no school.But I'm not complaining,but then again I'm... I do wish very much to be back in school for all the wrong reasons but who cares,well at least I don't.

We went to catch The Lakehouse today,and I would say its a pretty good movie,one of the rare fews that would have my complete attention(maybe because its my kind of movie).I really like the storyline,kinda nice to see the way love is put into play here,the different aspects of it.I guess the thing that really hit me the most was Waiting...... (anyone who watched the movie would prolly understand). yes,waiting......

i really love my time with you,i wish i could have more of it.
-
Love is worth waiting for.

2006-07-31T22:16:00.000+08:00

Love is friendship on fire,thats how i feel about you.
Xoxo

2006-07-31T02:21:00.000+08:00

It feels weird not having to be sleeping early so as to make it to school on time.Then it suddenly dawn on me that 15 days arent that long either.Cyn just reminded me of how much i'll miss school in MI,I'll miss Chu...and Team Lost Form...
-
A sense of belonging;I only knew what it really is to belong to something,to identify with something this year.And for that i have my clique to thank you for,you guys really made me feel like i belong to the group.Many years i've been drifting in and out searching for some place to belong but i've never found one until now...So I wanna tell TLF that I really love your,serious.And i'll miss school days with the 5 of you.
-
This feels different,I really cant put my hands to it but i know its different.You've taught me alot,i found this deep connection in you that i can't find it in anyone else.Sometimes you make me feel like there is only you and me in this world,you don't know how much you make me feel.I wish i could tell you all the reasons why i like you so much but sometimes those words just get tangled up in lines.(I'm afraid to use the word love to you,because i thought it might be too strong a word) I'm so into you. Xoxo

Love need not be shown,because love on its own can be felt from the heart.
The best relationship is one that is firmly rooted in a strong friendship.

2006-07-29T01:46:00.000+08:00

New template up (=
mission accomplished!
i'm no more emo kid XD

Cause she makes me happy

2006-07-27T22:31:00.000+08:00

Last day of school tomorrow
i know i'll miss MI somehow
i'll miss the sleeping times in class,
the fun and laughters with TLF,
usual bitchings,games and talks with them.
Team Lost Form: Felix,Timothy,Wei koon,Victoria & Gen Gen

Felix you puizai i'll miss your sweets,how you'll always throw them,
your stupid laughters,your inertia-forever so SLOW,and maybe i'll miss how you call me Di Wen when i'm Di Yun =D

Timothy you this perv! i'll never forget what happen just now at GP lesson okay! haha,it feels so eeww... but i'll miss your pervness(no such word) somehow. "go get a room" well timmy i'll miss sitting next to you and talking to you or just fooling around.

Ah koon,i'll punch you hard next time round,or maybe i should try pinch? heh i'll miss having the usual punches from you,and the bullying! oh and and how you will always shoot us back in chinese or hokkien and leave us speechless trying to grasp what you just said.

Vicky,you bimbo =D i guess my ears will miss you cause it'll be silent without you and your loudspeaker voice and laughters.i'll miss the bitching with you or maybe the toilet trips? and how sometimes i become your hand puppet.LOL

Gen Gen,without you,no more people to wake me up when i'm sleeping already! i'll miss talking to you,the bus trips home. The usual talks we have about anything and your questions asking hoh aunty?! (totally what Wei Koon said) =D

i wonder how it feels without the usual school day
the Mrt and Bus trips to school,and how every morning i'll contemplate skipping school which i do very often.
its the presence of the friends that i'll really miss a hell lot )=

and then i think again,how does it really feels not having to be in literature class anymore with you? without you doddling all over my papers and hand or me doddling on your hand. using marker pens to try and fight each other when in the end we both got ink all over our hands and legs.or maybe the times where we write stuff on our notes just so to communicate without the teacher knowing.or the bus trips to school where sometimes i'll annoy the hell out of you cause i'm hyper in the morning while you stone.and the times we both try to tickle each other cause we both know just where to poke.HAHA or maybe the times when its time to walk to another class or maybe breaks and i'll spot you and just shout for you.or how we count the steps to the school gate,making fun of each other in ways only known to us.that smile on your face,that silly grin. i know i'll miss all these and so many more.i'm not done yet,this is just the school part,how about the after school part? the outings and all... i'll continue listing them down another day.
IMCHU
(you're my abusive girlfriend) XooXOoXxxooO

2006-07-21T12:48:00.000+08:00

Flight postpone to 15 aug.

I don't know anymore
What it's for
I'm not even sure
If there is anyone who is in the sun
Will you help me to understand
'Cause I been caught in between all
I wish for and all I need
Maybe you're not even sure what it's for
Any more than me

I guess i'm pretty lost right now.

2006-07-18T00:54:00.000+08:00

i'm so ordinary
with a story to be told
a story of me...

Beautiful day,i'll tell you why...
Its how we see in our eyes
i learn what is it to be happy
and it lies in me

I can tell you just how beautiful the sky can be,boundless and open.
but if you do not see the way i do,it'll never be beautiful to you.

And have i ever told you,looking at you sleep was like watching an angel.

2006-07-17T10:08:00.000+08:00

Monday blues...
why not green or black or white?
okay that was way cold.
cynthia chu:
"fuck you"-laugh-
chu ah chu whats with that grin on your face? XD

it feels like its gonna rain soon,with the thunder and all
and i really wish i was in bed right now just sleeping in
sleeping in... what a wish...
when i'm in school now waiting to be let out at 5.15!!!
but at least i've the company of Chu Ching Man and my lovely TLF =D
HAHAHA
oh and did i say i'll be getting back some of my papers today?
what a way to start monday...blues...

-Cynthia Chu:
Cherish is really emo, so please excuse her very emo rants. Okay, she just said i'm emo. Okay she says it not emo again. She's weird.
-Cherish Yew:
i'm not emo,Cynthia is the really emo one,yes Cynthia. HAHA

but you know.... HAHAHA

2006-07-17T00:39:00.000+08:00

updates soon... (:
cause i wanna crash my bed already.

i think i'm missing you
if you know who i'm refering to.
IM... (try to fill in the blanks,only you and i know)
HAHAHA

maybe its not too late for me to fly. XD
-Saving jane

(:
=D
XD

2006-07-15T03:24:00.000+08:00

i'm starting to feel like there is not enough time
so much things left to do with so little time.
and ya i'll update you guys when its all confirm.
how exciting yet frightening. LOL

Life is all about trusting your feelings & taking chances;losing & finding happiness;appreciating the memories & learning from the pain & realizing that people always change.

i'm doing things my way
you dont have to know the reason why
for it'll be known one day
and you'll only understand me as much as i will let you
you created this yourself
you know what you've done
and whats really going on
so dont play me like a fool
cause im no longer one
stop lying.This is already the limit.

oh ya before i forgot:

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY CYNTHIA CHU

2006-07-11T11:26:00.000+08:00

i'm starting to feel afraid
its another three weeks before i'll be off to the states
i dont like changes,i mean who likes changes?
and this is one huge change
more like everything change
and i have to learn to adapt to it.
but then again there is so much to be afraid of
loneliness,what if i dont fit in,different lifestyle
and so much more
and i'm not the kind whose good at making new friends
i'm very much the shy person
now tell me how?
everything is gonna be new and different
new place,new environment,new school
totally out of my comfort zone
i'm afraid of all these new things )=
but still ultimately
i know i will make it through
i have to make it through
i have to believe in myself cause that will be what i'm left
trust and faith in one's self.
i will never allow myself to let myself down
and i trust in that.
okay,then there is another part to this
which is leaving here,leaving my family and friends
omg,how i will miss you guys
my family and friends have always been my pillar
where i seek comfort and solace in
its in them when i'm really me
they've always been there for me,
to see me through everything.(i'm really thankful for friends like these,seriously thank you)
i wont deny but friends are a HUGE part of my life
now without them,tell me what will be left of me?
ahhh now i lost my train of thoughts pfff.
anyway guys,dates out soon okay?
dont forget (=
and hahaha.. i need to tell you guys something
so ask me and it shall be told. LOL

As long as stars shine down from heaven
And the rivers run into the sea
Til the end of time forever
You re the only love I ll need

In my life
You re all that matters
In my eyes the only truth I see
When my hopes and dreams have shattered
You re the one that s there for me

When I found You
I was blessed
And I will never leave You, I need You

Imagine me without You
I d be lost and so confused
I wouldn t last a day, I d be afraid
Without You there to see me through

Imagine me without You Lord,
You know it s just impossible Because of You,
it s all brand new
My life is now worthwhile
I cant imagine me without You

When You caught me I was falling
Your love lifted me back on my feet
It was like You heard me calling
And You rush to set me free

When I found You I was blessed
And I will never leave You, I need You

When I found You I was blessed
And I will never leave You, I need You oh

I cant imagine me without You

sometimes i look at you and wonder how i'm ever going to walk away

2006-07-07T16:00:00.000+08:00

Your kiss, your smile, your mind
You're sunlight in my eyes
I miss your breath on my neck
When we whisper in the night

Didn't wanna want you
Didn't wanna need you so bad
Didn't wanna wake up
And find that I was falling so fast
Didn't wanna need you
Didn't wanna need anyone
Now look what you've done

Now I can't go on without you
I'm naked, I cant fake it.
I'm not that strong without you
Never thought I could love you the way I do.

Your touch, your skin, can't believe the way you let me in
Don't rush tonight, I need you like the ocean needs the tide.

Didn't wanna want you
Didn't wanna need you so bad
Didn't wanna wake up
And find that I was falling so fast
Didn't wanna need you
Didn't wanna need anyone
Now look what you've done

Now I can't go on without you
I'm naked, I cant fake it.
I'm not that strong without you
Never thought I could love you the way I do.

I always thought I would stand on my own
Climb a mountain top all alone
Relying, depending on no one
Now look at what you've done

Now I can't go on without you
I'm naked, I cant fake it.
I'm not that strong without you
Never thought I could love you the way I do.

Never thought I could love you
Never thought I could need you
Never thought I could want you
The way I do

Never thought I could love you
Never thought I could need you
Never thought I could want you
The way I do

I love you
I need you
I want you
..the way I do

Its already july 7...
one more month before i'll be gone
if everything gets confirm tt is
which is more or less there.
i pretty much look forward to it
but then again i dont,you know?
its like a risk im taking
a different place where i have to build everything again.
leaving everything behind is gonna be hard
i feel i'm still young
i mean im just 17(okay,soon to be 17)
but i have to make and take one of the most important choices in my life
its like growing up faster than usual
and i yearn to go back where i dont have choices like this
but then again life is about risks right?
so i guess i'll take my chances
the road of life is only beginning
sucha scary thought...haha

i love you still,i do
i hope someday,somehow
this love will come true again
where we will open another chapter of you and me
this love will never be forgotten
cause you already found yourself a place in my heart
where you will be kept in forever.
there is something about you that makes me stay
just the way you are,just the way it is
i love you.
we'll have one last kiss before i'm gone.

2006-06-30T14:07:00.000+08:00

I close my eyes and even when I'm sleeping I'm alright
Cause you are in my life
Once upon a time
I only imagined this
And now you're mine
Wished for you so hard
Pray that you'd find me
Maybe you're here today
Here to remind me

If you believe that dreams come true
There's one that's waiting there for you
Cause I believed when I saw you that when you want something enough
Then it can't escape your love
There is nothing in the world that cannot be
If you believe

Everybody said that I was a fool to think that we connect
(Everybody said that) I couldn't get my heart out of my head
They just didn't see
No they just couldn't know
The feeling that you get
The places that you go

If you believe that dreams come true
There's one that's waiting there for you
Cause I believed when I saw you
That when you want something enough
Then it can't escape your love
There is nothing in the world that cannot be
If you believe

Never wished for material things
Never needed wind in my wings
I never wished for anything but you...
I can't explain it
Someone just told me
Go where your heart is you'll never be lonely

If you believe that dreams come true
There's one that's waiting there for you
Cause I believed when I saw you that when you want someone enough
Then they can't escape your love
There is nothing in the world that cannot be
If you believe

i love you
but do you?

2006-06-30T11:10:00.000+08:00

do you even care?
do you even know,
do you even care
how i feel for you
how i go crazy over you
how i miss you
think about you
loving you
do you?
who am i to you?
why am i such a fool?

2006-06-29T22:01:00.000+08:00

i'd never thought i could miss you this way
sometimes i wish i could just disappear
because i really dont want to be here
the only place i wanna be is right beside you
but you never let me
why cant you see that all i ever want to be
is to be with you no matter what
you dont know how much im missing you
you dont know how you're the only thing on my mind
is not love the promise to go through the good and the bad together?
then why dont i get a chance?
there is so much i want to say
i want to tell you
i wish i could but i dont know how
cause you're not letting me in
can't you see you're the only place where i want to be
i love you

2006-06-28T23:49:00.000+08:00

i love you
but what can i do?
it doesnt matter anymore.

2006-06-28T18:05:00.000+08:00

It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
'Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care

I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star that's coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings
With the truth
When there was me and you

I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled you made me feel
Like I could sing along.
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
And once upon a song

Now I know you're not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star just don't come true
Cause now even I can tell
That I confused my feelings
With the truth
Because I liked the view
When there was me and you

I can't believe
That I could be so blind
It's like you were floating
while I was falling
And I didn't mind

Because I liked the view
I thought you felt it too
When there was me and you

its time i put my life in order
dont you know i gave you my world
my life,my everything
to watch it come falling down on me like that
and i cant let this happen anymore
cause you'd destroyed my life
its time i woke up from this dream
Goodbye

2006-06-28T10:50:00.000+08:00

Funny when you stop and think
Time goes fast and then you blink
Nothing's ever like it was

Girl we've got a special thing
And all the happiness it brings
Is more than enough

I know it's hard to believe
You're still the biggest part of me
All I'm living for

I still think about you
I still dream about you
I still want you, and need you by my side
I'm still mad about you
All I ever wanted was you
You're still the one
You're still the one

It's hard to breathe when we're apart
You're like sunshine in my heart
I keep you here inside

You've been everything to me
You've been and always will be
The apple of my eye.

And I know it's hard to believe
You're still the biggest part of me
All I'm living for

I still think about you
I still dream about you
I still want you, and need you by my side
I'm still mad about you
All I ever wanted was you
You're still the one
You're still the one

If you love me, look into my eyes
And say you do
I've been waitin all my life for someone
Just like you
Baby after all we've been through
Girl I'm still in love with you
And I want you to know I do
I do

Still think about you
Still dream about you
Still want you, and need you by my side
Still mad about you
All I ever wanted was you
You're still the one
You're still the one

i wish you know
just how much you mean to me
how i gave my whole world just for you
i wish i could take you to a place
where there was only you and me
then maybe we could be happy together
dont lock your heart
let me in
maybe i can make it right again
if you would just let me
even if its hell i've got to go through
then so be it
i'll do anything for you
i gave my all,and if its not enough
i'll give even more
for you,i will

2006-06-26T19:04:00.000+08:00

When it's love you give
I'll be a man of good faith
then in love you live.
I'll make a stand.I won't break
I'll be the rock you can build on,
be there when you're old,
to have and to hold.

When there's love inside
I swear I'll always be strong
then there's a reason why.
I'll prove to you we belong
I'll be the wall that protects you
from the wind and the rain,
from the hurt and pain.

Let's make it all for one and all for love.
Let the one you hold be the one you want,
The one you need,
Cause when it's all for one it's one for all.
When there's someone that should know
Then just let your feelings show
And make it all for one and all for love.

When it's love you make
I'll be the fire in your night.
When it's love you take.
I will defend, I will fight
I'll be there when you need me.
When honor's at stake,
This vow I will make

That it's all for one and all for love.
Let the one you hold be the one you want,
The one you need.
Cause when it's all for one it's one for all.
When there's someone that should know
Then just let your feelings show
And make it all for one and all for love.

Don't lay our love to rest
Cause we can stand up to the test.
We got everything, that and more
Then we had planned,
More than the rivers that run the land.
We've got it all, in our hands.

Now it's all for one and all for love.
Let the one you hold be the one you want
The one you need,
Cause when it's all for one it's one for all.
When there's someone that should know
then just let your feelings show.
When there's someone that you want,
when there's someone that you need
Let's make it all, all for one and all for love.

she is still the girl i love
i want and need
i'll continue loving her no matter what happens
i'll love her just the way she wants to be love
i'll love her just the way she is
and for her,i'll do anything
i'll do it all for love
this love i feel with,for her
is a different kind of love
something special
untouchable and
unfathomable
by others
true love
though we're no longer together
but my love for her has never ceased
infact it grows alittle more each day
and if its possible i'll love her for this lifetime of mine
hoping our life will interwined with each other's again
i'll love her just as it is
i'll show you love is true and real
this is love.
she will always be the only one in my heart

2006-06-25T16:16:00.000+08:00

I really miss you
There's something I gotta say...

The things we did, the things we said
Keep comin' back to me and make me smile again
You showed me how to face the truth
Everything that's good in me I owe to you

And though the distance that's between us
Now may seem to be too far
It will never separate us
Deep inside I know you are...

Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close, every day
Every step along the way
Even though for now we've got to say goodbye
I know you will be forever in my life
Never gone

I walk along these empty streets
There is not a second you're not here with me
The love you gave, the praise you showed
Will always give me strength and be my corner stone

Somehow you found a way
To see the best I have in me
As long as time goes on
I swear to you that you will be...

Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close, every day
Every step along the way
Even though for now we've got to say goodbye
I know you will be forever in my life
Never gone

Never gone from me
If there's one thing I believe

I will see you somewhere down the road again

Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close, everyday
Every step along the way
Even though for now we've got to say goodbye
I know you will be forever in my life
Never gone

Never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close, everyday
Every step along the way

Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are

2006-06-25T13:38:00.000+08:00

What can I say
I've lost you again
you made your decision
and put "us" to an end

What I didn"t expect had come so fast
I guess we were different
cause I thought it would last

What made me happy
was to see you smile
and now that you're gone
it will take me a while

Though you're not mine
I still strive to see your face
God it's hard to believe
it seems so out of place

I thought that I knew you
I thought you were right
But you changed my opinion
in one single night

To say I'm not sad
well it's all a big lie
'cuz when you see me happy
I'm really wanting to cry

I'm sure that you're glad
now that you're free
no more holding you back
just 'cuz of me

You just wanna be friends
I guess that'll have to do
but please never forget
I will always love you

2006-06-24T21:35:00.000+08:00

i miss you
your still in my heart.

2006-06-24T11:35:00.000+08:00

some thoughts for the day

everything in life has a beginning and ending
i should have saw this ending came
but because i choose not to see it come
im going through a terrible time letting go.
but i know i've got to let go
and its time to clear up the things in my heart
and move on to a new beginnning
i'll find my life back
give me a little time
i'm moving on
i'm actually looking forward to my move to seattle
because i see my future there.

Looking at your picture from when we first met
You gave me a smile that I could never forget
And nothing I could do could protect me from you that night
Wrapped around your finger
Always in my mind
The days they blend 'cause we stayed up all night
Yeah, you and I were everything, everything to me

I just want you to know that I've been fighting to let you go
Some days I'll make it through, and then there's nights that never end
I wish that I could believe that there's a day you'll come back to me
But still I have to say I would do it all again, just want you to know

All the doors are closing
I'm trying to move ahead
And deep inside I wish it was me instead
My dreams are empty from the day
The day you slipped away

And I just want you to know that I've been fighting to let you go
Some days I'll make it through, and then there's nights that never end
I wish that I could believe that there's a day you'll come back to me
But still I have to say I would do it all again, just want you to know

That since I lost you, I lost myself
I know I can't fake it, there's no one else

I just want you to know that I've been fighting to let you go
Some days I'll make it through, and then there's nights that never end
I wish that I could believe that there's a day you'll come back to me
But still I have to say I would do it all again, just want you to know

2006-06-22T13:05:00.000+08:00

Broken promises
But you don't really mind
It's not the first time and you know it
Don't you know
Tell me why it is you only smile inside
But when you break me into nothing
Don't you know It's not like
I haven't tried over and over again
Stupid fights, wrong or right
Goodbye

I remember when you came with me that night
We said forever, that you would never let me go
But here I am again
With nothing left inside
No I don't wanna
~~But I gotta let you go~~

You're the one mistake I really didn't mind
So beautiful, unmerciful
It took me down
Too little and too late
See now I know your kind
You fake it easy just to please me
Don't you know
It's not like we haven't tried over and over again
Sleepless nights, wrong or right
Goodbye

I remember when you came with me that night
We said forever, that you would never let me go
But here I am again
With nothing left inside
No I don't wanna
~~But I gotta let you go~~

I gotta let you go
It's you
There's nothing I can do

I remember when you came with me that night
you said forever you said forever you said forever
But here I am again
With nothing left inside
No I don't wanna
~~But I gotta let you go~~

I remember when you came with me that night
We said forever, that you would never let me go
But here I am again
With nothing left inside
No I don't wanna
~~But I gotta let you go~~

i dont wanna let you go
i just cant,just cant let you go
where has all the promises that you'll never leave me gone to?
(tell me whats going through your mind
tell me what you really want)

2006-06-21T12:49:00.000+08:00

"Do you wanna run away together?"
I would say it was your best line ever
Too bad I fell for it
And I walked alone
Waiting for you to come along
Take my tortured heart by the hand
And write me off

Do you know I cry?
Do you know I die?
Do you know I cry?
And it's not the good kind

You forced me to become strong
When I just craved being weak
Yeah,yeah
And you think you know
And I would like to think so
But do you know that when you go I
I fall apart

~~No, You're not the good kind~~

I'm tired of hiding behind these blind eyes
I'm tired of this smile that even I don't recognize

can i have you all over again?
i'll give anything
to hear you say lets get back together
i want your loving
tell me whats going through your mind
cause it seems to be in a jumble pile of mess
and its confusing me so badly
girl i love you,i really dont wanna let you go
do you?
tell me,tell me you still love me.

2006-06-19T19:25:00.000+08:00

Everything I knew, just blew out the window,
Now I can't depend on you forever.
And I never thought I'd see my life walk away from me,
I thought we'd always be together.

No I shouldn't have to pay for every word I say,
I wish I could change your decision,
Now you know that I've tried to tell you what it's like,
But you just wouldn't listen.

Lets go back, lets rewind to the days,
That remind me of all the good times,
That we spent together.
And I dont know why we just let it all slide,
When we both knew inside we were right for each other,
I dont know what to do,
Cos you're everything that I knew.

Everydays the same its like tomorrow never came,
We used to talk about whatever.
The seasons never changed,
We never used to act our age,
Every time we were together.

No I shouldnt have to pay for every word I say,
I wish I could change your decision,
Now you know that I've tried to tell you what its like,
But you just wouldn't listen.

Lets go back, lets rewind to the days,
That remind me of all the good times,
That we spent together.
And I dont know why we just let it all slide,
When we both knew inside we were right for each other,
I dont know what to do,
Cos you're everything that I knew.

How can you just walk out of my life,
Without even giving a reason,
And how can you look so good,
The day I watched you leave me.

Lets go back, lets rewind to the days,
That remind me of all the good times,
That we spent together,
And I dont know why we just let it all slide,
When we both knew inside we were right for each other,
I dont know what to do,
Cos you're everything that i knew.

you're everything i knew
i love you.
i wish we could go back in time.

2006-06-18T15:56:00.000+08:00

Yeah, Yeah, yeah

Sitting here alone
Thinking it through
Trying to convince myself
That I'm not losing you
Why can't you just forget the things I said
I was angry at that time
But now I've cleared my head

It was so strong
Where did it all go wrong

So tell me why
I'm swimming against the tide
I'm praying for a lifeline
Cos I'm losing you
So tell me why
You don't care enough to try
Are you giving up this fight?
I can't stand, wont stand
Losing you

You don't have to say a word
It's in your eyes
What can I do to convince you
We need more time
And i know I may have made a few mistakes
But losing you is just to much for me to take

It was so strong
Where did it all go wrong

So tell me why
I'm swimming against the tide
I'm praying for a lifeline
Cos I'm losing you
So tell me why
You don't care enough to try
Are you giving up this fight?
I can't stand, wont stand
Losing you

So tell me what to say
Because I need
A chance to change
And I wont let you walk away

So tell me why
I'm swimming against the tide
I'm praying for a lifeline
Cos I'm losing you
So tell me why
You don't care enough to try
Are you giving up this fight?
I can't stand, won't stand
Losing you

why did i have to lose you?
it hurts so much knowing we're not tgt anymore
its hard to let go
i wish i knew how to be happy without you
but i dont,i dont
i need you,i really need you
you were like my world
i gave my all
and now it hurts to fall.
yes i wish i hate you
but i dont,i love you so much its really hurting me inside
im weak,i admit
but its because i really love you so
i love you like i have never love before
that is true
and i really thought this would not end
i dont know how to pick myself up
i want you,i need you
i really miss you
i sleep thinking about you
i wake thinking about you
i cant sleep cos i really miss you
i only know how to talk about you
its only you
and i wont deny i have not stop crying
since the time we ended
i really miss you

2006-06-17T22:55:00.000+08:00

i dont want you to know where i am
because then you'll see my heart
in the saddest state its ever been.

i know things happen for a reason
thats what you all tell me
and what i used to tell people so easily
but its still hard to take it in
or even accept the truth
i mean its been going good,i've nvr been so happy with someone
and all of a sudden this has to end?
this is the hardest kind of heartache to get over
because there is simply no reason how we could end
but due to some external party.
is this the only reason why?
i really want to know really why.
could you tell me?
~~i know you still love me~~ do you?
and i really still love you
sigh

i never thought how this song could apply to me
but now i know,here goes one part of it :

Gotta fix that calendar I have
That's marked April 11th
Because since there's no more you
There's no more anniversary
I'm so fed up with my thoughts of you
And your memories
And now every song reminds me
Of what used to be

how can something so right like this
end up so wrong.
i'll miss you

i think about you
and its breaking my heart
im trying to keep it together
but im falling apart

2006-06-17T15:18:00.000+08:00

like two complete strangers

i'm falling
wanna fall right through
at least in the process of falling
i will maybe find the thing i have been looking for
i wanna fall back into your wings that once gave me hope and love
i need to breathe

One touch can bring us closer
don't want this to be over
You know that you complete me
your love is what I need
Don't rush to see you leaving
stay with me while I'm sleeping
Cuz you know what you do to me
I'm weak and you know my heart is beating

won't someone come and save me?
i need to know
whats worth already,
cause i'm losing it all

such a distance you play
i feel far away,far away from you
like i've nvr known you
its like i lost you.
have i?

watching you walk away...

2006-06-04T02:27:00.000+08:00

i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i misss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.

Baby i miss you,i really do.
i miss everything about you
and i love you (=

2006-06-02T13:08:00.000+08:00

missing you,loving you became my all.

baby im missing you
going nuts over this
its just four days but baby
its too long for me to bear without you here with me
not even your voice,nor your touch
im breaking down without you;
i really need you like how i need air
honeypie im counting down the days
till your in my arms again
tts another 2 or 3 days
all i can do now is going through
every single memory of you and me,
those sweet memories
cant believe i've come this far with you
but baby this aint far enough
i want to take your hand in mine
(cant you see they fit so perfectly together)
and walk through this life together
this i swear.
darling im falling deeper and deeper for you
as every single seconds pass
you're everything tts on my mind
everything i ever talk about

baby your my all,i love you truely.

2006-05-18T19:05:00.000+08:00

should i learn to have more self-confidence
and independent
or should you learn to love me more?
how much do you want me?
sometimes i feel you dont want me enough
tell me,tell me baby i really wanna know
but i'd really like it if you would show it
show how much you really love me
i need you,not just your words
i need you to show me not just tell me
show me baby wont you?
im losing your touch

So tell me this time
Don't you know I'm losing my mind
Is the feeling mutual
Cause I, baby I just gotta know, I gotta know
Now tell me (could you love)
I got my heart invested (would you love)
If I gave my best and (could you love)
Here's the question (could you love me)
Could you love me(could you love)
I'll leave myself wide open (would you love)
And inside I'm hoping (could you love)
Cause words unspoken
Could you love me

2006-05-15T22:18:00.000+08:00

i finally felt how that bimbo felt when she was tgt with me.
anyway my bimbotic of a best friend i miss you!
you know who you are (=

2006-05-06T13:58:00.000+08:00

BANG! just shoot me dead wont you?
at least i'll die,happy.
tell me whats on your mind,
such a difficult thing to decipher.
..........Dead...........

meet you at the other end,
imc.

Didn't wanna hold you
Didn't wanna need you so bad
Didn't wanna wake up
And find that I was falling so fast
Didn't wanna need you
Didn't wanna need anyone
Now look what you've done

2006-04-30T18:33:00.000+08:00

*The Good, The Bad, and the Ugly! - A Survey of Your Life*
* So Basically... *
Name?:	Cherish Yew. i know you love my name(=
Age?:	17
Sex?:	female,HAHA
Birth Date?:	29/12/89
Hair Color?:	dark brown?
Eye Color?:	very dark brown,LOL
Height?:	161, i GREW! lol at least im at the 160 mark.
Weight?:	52,okay i know im fat)=
Body Type?:	atheletic
Piercings?:	jus one on both sides of the ear,im a good girl.
Tattoos?:	not at all,told ya im a good girl
What are you wearing right now?:	boxer and a shirt? im home alone.
Hair style at the moment?:	i jus woke up,so whats tt call? out of bed?
* Favorites *
Soda?:	coke? okay random
Food?:	MUDPIE!!! nydc...
Drink?:	peach tea? with alo vera pulps
Alcoholic Drink?:	Shots,vodka lime.
Time of day?:	night,im a nocturnal.
Season?:	winter,i love the cold and the snowball fights.
Day of the week?:	friday? cos its time to get the party started(=
Song at the moment?:	take the lead soundtrack,what's left of me.
Band/Artist?:	dont really have one.
Book?:	The client.
Subject in school?:	LITERATURE
Place in the USA?:	OC,California
Place outside the USA?:	Aussie
Color?:	Green
Style of clothes?:	Smart casual,jus hang with me and you'll know.
Store?:	American eagle. LOL
Mall?:	Singapore is too small la,everywhere is boring.
City?:	i dont know.
Website?:	www.scarredbyreality.blogspot.com (=
Magazine?:	i dont really read one right now.
Kind of pet?:	Doggies,they're cute!
* Worst *
Place to be?:	in a oven? burn yourself
Class in school?:	Chemistry,tts for sure.
Time of dayr?:	Morning,i dread waking up early for school
Season?:	i like all the Season
Kind of pet?:	Chickens,they're noisy animals
Drink?:	Milk,ewww
Food?:	veggie,they're bitter and horrible
Mall?:	shant mention
Store?:	not like i know,maybe those pinky kind. you'll get what i mean
Style of clothes?:	HAHA,you'll know it for yourself.
Celebrity?:
Color?:	Pink!
Book?:	textbook,LOL
Type of music?:	those thats meaningless,and i know you gonna ask me to define meaningless.
Website?:	like i know?
Magazine?:	...........
* Daily Life *
When do you get up?:	at 5.45,for school )=
What is your first thought?:	huh? go bathe
What do you do first?:	BATHE! like duh.
What's your usual outfit?:	Uniform for school.
What's the first class of the day?:	Flag rising,HAHA okay i mean IRP,intereative reading period.
When does school end?:	5.15,3.45,5.40,1.30,12.45. take your pick
Do you see your friends?:	tts a dumb question.
What do you do when you get home?:	go find something to eat (=
What time do you go to bed?:	at unearthly hrs
* Do you...*:
Brush your teeth daily?:	YES
Brush your hair daily?:	you mean wax? HAHA
Shower daily?:	OF COS, i dont live in the chutes you know.
Sing?:	yep
Dance?:	uh huh,i like it.
Party?:	of cos! lets get this party started.
Get drunk?:	Nope, maybe jus once
Have sex?:	NO,im a virgin(=
Read books?:	yes,does notes count?
Listening to music a lot?:	UH HUH,tts something i cant live without.
Read magazines?:	Sometimes
Go online a lot?:	YEP tts the only thing to do at home except maybe eating and sleeping
Stay on AIM all day even with an away message?:	No.
Have a religion?:	yea,christian. but i dont go to chruch anymore.
Have an IPod?:	nope.
Want an IPod?:	YES , who wants to donate one to me??? (=
Have a Girlfriend/Boyfriend?:	HAHA tts for you to ans.yes
Play an instrument?:	no but i wanna learn the drums
Get sick a lot?:	No,im fit and healthy
Watch TV?:	seldom.
Like MTV?:	YES YES,i told you i love music
Like VH1?:	....
Like the History Channel?:	-yawns
Have Digital Cable?:	nope )= so sad right?
Have more than 500 channels on your TV?:	no no
Listen to the radio?:	Seldom
Still use your CD player?:	you mean the ones at home? yes.
Stalk people?:	NO,i dont have so much time.
Have more than 200 buddies on your Buddy List?:	maybe?
Have dial-up internet?:	NO,its call wireless.
Have AOL?:	nope.
Know HTML?:	im a HTML idoit
Have a GPA higher than 3.9?:	WOW tts an A! but in Singapore we dont count like tt.
Get H's in honors classes?:	.......
* Music *
Do you listen to Rap?:	yes.
R & B?:	HURHUR,i love them
Blues and/or Jazz?:	YES,they're good for relaxing
Classical?:	sometimes
Pop?:	who doesnt?
Country?:	yes yes,they're good!
Emo/Scremo?:	LOL
Heavy Metal?:	no.not my kind
Christian?:	sometimes
Techno?:	No no no no no no!!
Reggae?:	YES,lets go dance.
Broadway Musical songs?:	of course,good music. catchy
Oldies?:	I LOVE THEM!!!!
* In A Boyfriend/Girlfriend *
Hair color?:	Brown
Eye color?:	it'll be good if its blue. but it doesnt matter.
Tattoos?:	its up to them,im okay with it,jus let it be nice.
Piercings?:	holey holey,cool with it. not too many though
Favorite Music?:	Reggae,hiphop,R&B,oldies,bossanova,jazz,anything nice.
Style of clothing?:	as long as they look good.
Body Type?:	slim.atheletic
Personality or Looks?:	Both.
Would you go out with someone just for their money?:	No,tts plain dumb.
Do you go on "Pity Dates"?:	i dont think so,but if its fun then okay.
Does size matter?:	truth? i think yes.
Do they have to be popular?:	nope,sometime its not so good to be popular.
Does the guy ask the girl or the other way around?:	both way goes
Where do you go on the first date?:	somewhere fun.
Kiss on the first date?:	i dont mind(=
Sex on the first date?:	NO,not until im married. haha!
* Right Now *
Do you think you look good right now?:	right now? jus out of bed? No.
Are you eating something?:	nope but im finding something to eat,as always
Are you drinking something?:	Cold water.
Are you IMing anyone?:	yes,ms chu.
Are you talking on the phone with someone?:	nope,i cant really multi-task.
Are you talking face to face with someone?:	im home alone,so go figure
Is anyone at your house who doesn't live there?:	Nope.
What song are you listening to?:	Bare Naked
What are you watching on TV?:	its not even switched on.
What other websites do you have open?:	swts blog
Why are you taking this survey?:	cos i have nothing better to do on a rainy afternoon
Where are you going to post it?:	my blog.
What are you going to do after this?:	we'll see.
* What do you Believe? *
Do you believe in ghosts?:	maybe.
The afterlife?:	i dont know,no one been there to tell me before.
Aliens?:	HAHA how bout ET?
God?:	yes.
The devil?:	yes.
Heaven?:	yes.
Hell?:	yes.
Scientology?:	LOL
Hinduism?:	nope
Buddhism?:	nope
Christianity?:	yes
Taoism?:	nope
Judism?:	nope
Jesus?:	yes
Nothing?:	nope
Reincarnation?:	i dont know,why dont you tell me?
Yourself?:	haha of cos i do,its call self confidence.
* Randoms *
Have you been on an airplane before?:	yep, i love plane rides(=
Where were you going?:	you mean when? huh? no point
Have you been to another country?:	if you have been on an airplane before,then you already got your answer.
Have you ever went to another country with your friends?:	nope(= but i want to!
Have you ever partied in another country?:	yes.
Have you ever went on a roadtrip with your friends?:	no,planning one though.
Ever stayed online more than 10 hours straight?:	haha during the holidays
Pretended to like someone just to get popular?:	pretending to like someone is hard so nope.
Talked about someone behind their back?:	i think yes,everyone does right? if they dont,they're prob. lying
Had someone talk about you behind your back?:	of cos,in a world like this.bound to happen
Been in a fight online?:	online,haha! yea why not.
Been in a fight face to face?:	HAHA yes,plenty but its legal
Gotten yourself involved in a fight that wasn't about you?:	fight? im not tt dumb.
Been called a bitch?:	haha yes mostly for fun
Been called a slut/whore?:	LOL.
Been to Australia?:	haha yes.
Do you like snakes?:	im a snake,okay not literally
Ever cried to get your own way?:	when i was a kid
Ever broken a bone?:	yes,on my right arm.
Ever had to stay in the hospital for more than a week?:	when i jus came into this world. HAHA
Ever had serious surgery?:	i dont think so,jus some stitches
Ever looked a porn online?:	nope,i dont wanna pollute my eyes and mind
Ever went to one of those "adult" stores?:	HAHA no,im still innocent you know =D
Ever bought clothes at Walmart?:	i dont live in the states,so no
Ever gotten clothes from the Salvation Army?:	HAHA NO
Ever paid more than 100 dollars for a pair of jeans?:	yep
Ever been on stage for any reason?:	LOL of cos and its not scary,maybe jus abit
Ever been in a play?:	yeap(=
Ever been in a choir?:	sadly,yes now dont start laughing.
Ever been in a band?:	haha! not at all
Do you play, or used to play, an instrument?:	hmmm piano. when i was younger
Gotten a Brazilian Bikini Wax?:	not at all,i wonder how it feels HAHA
Waxed your eyebrows?:	nope
Waxed your legs?:	yes,and its all thanks to BGF (=
Cut yourself shaving?:	when i was a kid,it was jus playing around but i cut myself.
Have you ever died?:	then do you think i will be right here now? dumb
Was this survey an good at all?:	it cure my boredom i guess.
What time is it right now?:	6.30pm
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2006-04-28T00:23:00.000+08:00

the eyes are window to one's soul;

look into my eyes
and you'll find the answers your looking for.
for i speak no words
just look.

2006-04-09T01:06:00.000+08:00

there is alot of things i wanna write,wanna say.
yes,its emo stuff
and as i write along these lines
i realise i dont wanna write everything here
cos its too private to be put on a blog
so i'll spare you guys the emoness.

2006-04-09T00:36:00.000+08:00

i miss my beloved

every step i take now is literally painful or rather aching
but never mind,
it means im gonna be fitter! HAHA
actually i feel like dropping dead on my bed now at this moment
its such an unearthly hour to be awake,
opps pardon me.i dont know what im talking about actually.
you know,its like your in this dreamy mode and your trying to write bout something
and you always end up writing a trunk load of rubbish apart from what you really want to write,well im in this state now. LOL so excuse me.

i dont wanna end up playing some game,
cos my heart is already too broken for that.

2006-04-06T22:42:00.000+08:00

chemistry test today is a sure fail
i tell you i left section B all blank
and even write a thank you.
so cool,lost form.
school is such a killer sometimes
everyday also let off late
not only that,i get tons of hmwk )=

But then again i love school
cos there is Team Lost Form
and my beloved,darlings and dears
HAHA i think i getting more thick skin.
so miss me okay?!?!

2006-04-05T23:16:00.000+08:00

i'm very lazy to blog because
1)im very tired after my training
2)i haven done my hmwk and the lesson is first thing in the morning
3)i have not study for my chemistry test(which means im gonna fail badly)
4)i haven had enough sleep

and now i feel like sleeping already(=
nights.

2006-04-03T22:51:00.000+08:00

overdosage of highness;
im cherish JACK JACK yew.
okay now i am going mad but its okay
i come from MI(mental institute)

Team Lost Form Rocks!

and a hug for you
behind or beside.
you choose,your choice.

2006-03-26T01:40:00.000+08:00

if you were mine,
i'd show you how wonderful love could be.
my 100% ideal(=
need i say more?

2006-03-25T01:23:00.000+08:00

you'll never get what you want
you'll never get your heart desires
cause all along you never did.
nothing works out the way you want it to be,
all you ask was for one perfect chance
but heartbreaks was all you'll ever get
hope;i've already given up on tt
i'd rather stay far and watch you from the sidewalk silently
than to fall right through,knowing that maybe i'll never get you
one last try and i am out.
cause your my ideal,i've been waiting for you all along.

2006-03-16T01:10:00.000+08:00

-mindblock-

2006-03-13T21:43:00.000+08:00

Hi this is Steph, Cherish's super sweet friend. :)))))))))))))) Sweet, why? Because I'm helping her update and change her links and do whatever thingamajiggie to fix up her blog. And.... to make her blog un-stagnant. Or whatever it's called. :D

Cherish misses me but she just doesn't want to admit it 'cause I said 'Okay la' when she asked if I missed her. So mean right, don't want to admit. Cherish is hihoyippieyohappy now because I am on the phone with her as I type this and she is laughing her ass off and tomorrow she's coming over to have a movie marathon! :D And at the rate I'm typing, I'm gonna get a neck ache soon and her friend just screamed into the phone ouch.

Cherish is very sweet ok! She messaged me when we both were in camp and I was in Malaysiaaaaa truly asiaaaaaaa! :D Now she's going to Cheers I feel like such a stalker. Hahaha.

Ok bye bye I think I've updated enough and this'll keep you guys entertained enough till Lazy Miss Cherish decides to update her stinkwinky blog.

Goodbye! :) *kisshugcuddle*

2006-02-27T21:12:00.000+08:00

ohla people.
back from a busy week. ((=
and thanks to mysterious lady for blogging for me.

Bachelors,we should have more bachelors outing okay?
though we are already having alot of it.
hanging out together was already great fun
whats more spending the weekend at camp together with you guys was awesome.
haha like getting hype and retarded,you guys know what i mean. HaHa (:
-kisskiss (private joke)

singapore is so boring

2006-02-25T08:44:00.000+08:00

Hello all Cherish's readers, I am here on behalf of her to blog. Apparently, our friend wanted to act cool and not blog. She also wanted to tricked all of you into thinking that she has died emoing. Do not worry, she is still alive and kicking, skin is still as thick as anything that is thick.

Yes, I am just here to tell everyone that she has yet to kick the smelly bucket. Ok job done Cherish you owe me one, byebye.

2006-02-14T00:40:00.000+08:00

i never stopped loving you, i just stopped letting it show.

i wonder if i am right about it
well if i am right,then i want to say that there is no need for it
i mean why cant you tell me?
its simple and direct and make things clear
rather than leaving it in a mess now.
is avoidance really a good thing?
i dont think i want to lose you.even as a friend.

life is so simple yet complicated,
i once had this key,but i threw it away.
this key had everything;everything to life.
for the period of time when i had the key,
i felt full of life,i felt i had a purpose,
i truly felt happy without even trying to be happy.
i felt like all i needed was this key.
but after some time a new(old)key came along
and maybe i thought i wanted the new(old) key instead,
so i threw tt key away.
yes,the new(old)key open new doors but yet i felt empty.
i felt lost and for the longest time i tried finding ways to make myself happy
but none worked instead i felt hurt.
i really feel empty.

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause i don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am.

2006-02-12T17:12:00.000+08:00

i always wonder what crosses your mind
when your eyes meet mine.

Just cause her eyes don't shed a tear,
Doesn't mean her heart doesn't cry,
And just because she comes off strong,
Doesn't mean there is nothing wrong.

the jae thing is such a bother,
its making my head spin,
i dont even know what i want,
cause in my mind its only you.
and i have this totally unbelievable story thats going on in my head
and its the first time i ever habour thoughts like this
wishing it would come true.

i miss you so much.
if you ask me about the story,i might tell you.((=

2006-02-11T14:50:00.000+08:00

it's the waiting that's hard.
& not knowing whether you're waiting for anything at all.

sometimes it feels great to be alone
so free to be caught up in your own world
where you can let everything come true
because you know sometime it doesnt go tt way in reality

and you know i like making rounds in my entries
so people keep guessing.

i don't have the words to make you feel better .
but i do have arms to hug you,
the ears to listen to whatever you wanna talk about;
& and i have a heart \\ a heart thats achin to see you smile again

2006-02-09T19:02:00.000+08:00

its so scary not to know whats gonna happen next.
and scary not to have any control over it
its hard to explain how i really feel
ROAR
how do we control our emotions?
sometimes i dont wish to feel this way,but i cant help it.
sometimes i dont even know what im feeling
maybe i should learn how to take things easy
maybe i should learn how to detach and look at the bigger picture
is this going the right way? i dont know
i dont have the answer
but i think i can press on,i think i can hold on
i aint tt weak.
and most importantly i want to hold on.
i want to tell you
i will be here as always,nothing change
because i know what im feeling for you
and im not gonna give up tt easily.
dont have to be sorry,it aint your fault
-hugs
how i wish i could take you away from all your troubles
fly you high above the clouds
where you dont have to feel so xing ku anymore
how i wish i could wipe all your troubles away
and see you smile,you make my heart melt.
its weird but your eyes make me melt
how i wish i was the one for you.

2006-02-08T21:26:00.000+08:00

if only i knew what you were thinking
if only i knew whats happening
then maybe i will know what to do.
because you know i dont.
i know you wont even be reading this,but who cares.
there is so much i want to ask,so much i want to say
so much,if only i could.
but i know if only doesnt come true
there isnt a chance for it.
i dont know where to head,wont you tell me?
i love you,if only you knew how much.

2006-01-30T23:57:00.000+08:00

this post should be happy
please let it be happy.
dont sound so emo.
haha cos i shouldnt be emo,i should be happy
i should be...
as long as your happy,i will be happy. promise.promise.
be happy,be happy.

2006-01-30T23:46:00.000+08:00

i'd be alright. maybe,i dont know
dont try to tell me otherwise.
life should stop making a fool out of me
stop it,seriously just stop it.
i really dont need it.
well tell me,when are you gonna stop pushing me down after i just got up.
haha,im happy,see ((=
haha

2006-01-30T23:28:00.000+08:00

well i guess i should be happy right?
im gonna leave through the backdoor.
jus be happy.tts all.
i guess i saw this coming
i guess i shouldnt have
i guess..... i guess....
i guess,well fuck it with i guess.
im a dumb fool
there is no fair or unfair.
jus be silent and let me blame myself.
anyway...
just be happy,i know you are.
i wish your the best(=

2006-01-28T22:45:00.000+08:00

if the thing i dread most. happens,
can i just ask for one hug?
imissyou

2006-01-26T19:27:00.000+08:00

i feel everything is jus falling apart
i dont know where im headed
neither do i know whats gonna happen next
its like im jus hanging right in mid-air.
and you know it fucking hurts in my heart
i dont know how much longer its gonna fight
till it breaks apart.
im crying in my heart,and it fucking hurts so much
im thinking everyday,thinking,just thinking
dont leave me in doubt,it provides room for question.
this is not directed at a single thing,cause its everything tts falling
the only thing tts keeping me from falling is you,girl
girl,you keep me strong and the faith to carry on
but you know and i know its getting tiring
and im afraid,cause your the last straw
im afraid of whats gonna happen.
cause.....
and if tt falls part,im gonna break down
wont you be my wonderwall?

2006-01-22T21:30:00.000+08:00

im finally online,so its finally blogging time.
2006 is a darn horrible year
so many things happened in such a short time
it just seems like everything is crushing down on me
and i really mean EVERYTHING.
thankfully i've got friends there to pull me through
(christ,germs,vivi,flying bird)
haha you guys are gonna laugh when you see these names
times with you guys is so damm funny,
i've never laugh so hard and so much before.
who could ever ask for better friends when i've got friends like you guys
im really thankful for friends like your.thank you for everything(=
i love you guys((=

well,i've 5 stitches on my hand,how awesome.
im tired,very tired.
i dont know how long i can go on
im really really tired.

know that i will be there for you
i will stand by you no matter what
you can count on me((=
dont have to say your sorry
nor do you have to say thank you
because you know i will give my all just for you
just know you've got me.
ilu.

2006-01-11T22:29:00.000+08:00

missing you girl
words no longer can express how i feel towards you

The way you always made me look at you,
With all the simple things you said,
The way so many things surrounded you,
And all the tears it seemed to make.

And now i'm fallin there's nothing left to say,
And i can't break free not from in me there.

I can't breathe without you,I can't breathe with out you,
I can't breathe without you, Without you, Without you, Without you.

The way i thought i'd never leave this place,
The way you made it seem so real,
Coz you had faith and you had empathy,
And all i needed was this.

And now i'm falling, I've got nothing left too say,
And i can't break free, Not from in me there.

Coz i can't breathe without you, I can't breathe without you,
I can't breathe without you, Without you, Without you, Without you,

How can I let you leave this way,
Without you i'm not at all,
And i see things now all those memories,
Just too see you again.

if only i knew what to do
what to do to make things right
girl i just want you to know i really do love you
if you only knew how much.

2006-01-11T01:02:00.000+08:00

i never knew i could miss you this much
i miss your face
i miss your smile
i miss everything you do
i miss your laughter
i miss the look you give when you have something up your sleeves
i miss the look of seriousness on your face
i miss the smell of you
i miss your touch
i miss the way you look
i miss your eyes
i miss the way you make me feel
i miss the way you play
i miss talking to you
i miss the times with you
i miss ______ because i miss you
i miss making fun of you
i miss laughing with you
i miss doing things together with you
i miss the way you look when your down
i miss hanging out with you
i miss your voice
all in all i miss you girl.
you.

2006-01-10T23:19:00.000+08:00

i dreamt of you and how i wished i had never woke up from it
because in dreams i could make the impossible come true
and it felt so real but i know it will never be.
just you.

the funny part is i was late for work because of this one dream
i wished i wished i never woke up from it
haha,xboxing is so fun
we can just spend hours on it,and totally forgot about time.
i guess too long a holiday can also be a bore.
but its also fun and laidback(=

On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

girl you'll never know
i'll keep this love inside me
cause i guess its impossible between us.

2006-01-09T02:35:00.000+08:00

im going crazy,crazy just thinking about you
girl,i miss you

Wish I had what I needed
To be on my own'
Cause I feel so defeated
And I'm feeling alone
And it all seems so helpless
And I have no plans
I'm a plane in the sunset
With nowhere to land
And all I see
It could never make me happy
And all my sand castles spend their time collapsing

Let me know that you hear me
Let me know your touch
Let me know that you love me
Let that be enough

girl,i miss you
i really do

2006-01-09T01:53:00.000+08:00

im trying to get into the habit of blogging
but im getting lazy
last night clubbing was boring,made me emo along the way
first to phunk then after to chocolate bar(suck).
after got bored and the lights sucked so we decided to take a walk
and its so quiet,then it started to rain halfway(=
the raining part i like,cause standing in the rain made me feel free,away from all the things i've been feeling.for so long a time i actually felt free and happy jus standing there in the rain.
i cannot really explained why,but it felt good.
then cab home at around 2++,3?

i slept mostly the whole of today.maybe done a thing or two(=
gonna go tanning tml,provided it does not rain.

no one else made me feel the way you do
no one else come close except you,girl

2006-01-06T23:10:00.000+08:00

work as usual today(=
actually its very typical how i spend my day but fun nonetheless
and you know how i love the fried mars bar thingy,yummy
and i love it because i have a weakness for icecreams,LOL
i totally look forward to tml,i hope it turns out great((=

Well I tried to write a special song
A love song just for you
To explain the way you make me feel inside
Though the meaning may be simple
And the words may not be new
I couldn't make it clearer if I tried
I need you
And I couldn't live a day without you
I need you
More than anyone could ever know
I need you
And I wanna build my world around you
I need you
I need you
i need you-3T

i've never felt anything so true
so girl im here to stay
wont you give me just one chance
im so lost,so lost without you.

2006-01-06T00:31:00.000+08:00

okay well its 2006,so i thought its a new year
so why not renew this dumb blog.
so here goes the first post of 2006,HAHA

one year seem like a pretty long time,but hell it passed like a jetplane.
i cant believe we're gonna grow one year older this year,seem pretty fast,too fast i would say
so i guess this year is really gonna be a new start and all
cause everything is gonna be different;we're moving on to the next phrase of our life
there's alot i wanna say but i cant seem to put them in order
neither can i get it out
and i have to say,i cant believe everything tt has happened in the past year(2005)
i guess i've grown pretty much over the year,basically no longer the person,people would know me as.actually im pretty lost,i dont know where m i headed for.
i no longer know who m i,no longer know whats happening nor do i know what m i doing nor what m i getting myself into,i just no longer know anything.i feel empty.
to be continued...

im sorry,your gone.
i feel empty without you.

SURPRISE x3

2005-09-03T11:36:00.000+08:00

love x3.

hello ! still enjoy talking to you after all these years. ok la 2 yrs. sounds corny. hahs. i came here to give you a surprise. hahs ! omg. i really dont know what to do. urgh. i just feel so lost. AND your brother was irritating me to the max ! omg. i nearly died there. hahs. but he's nice and cute la. hahs. have decided already. stay crooked for life. though we're (me and him ) still tgt. urgh. there's nothing to talk about anymore. i dont even feel i'm attached. i feel more for that dumb dumb. hahas. she's cute la. but urgh. i dont know. ok. meet me soon yeahs. miss me !

*note: cherish is totally SINGLE AND AVAILABLE. i'm talking about my fcuking cock bf. hahs. woo her ! she's nice except that she's too nosy. hahs. but still cant beat me to that. hahs. AND i offically announce. I AM CROOKED. hahs. and I LOVE MY EYE CANDY :) she's getting hotter each day. about my bf, WHATEVER !

<3>

cherish the royal dinosaur.

2005-08-10T21:50:00.000+08:00

i'm a dinosaur and if you say you love me, i'll give you all a love bite. pls queue up !

,bgvmngb., m hyuju - your son typed this. hahas.

i love my papa dino.

ok my royal dinosaur. take care and i'm a call away...

- love; the royal princess.

2005-08-07T20:28:00.000+08:00

okay,im finally back,like after so long
the blog is nice sometimes
when i have got nobody to confide in(=
i really hate drama shows or something like that
when the bad guys are so wicked
argh,i just feel like boxing them pls))=
major upset! ahhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!

i hate this world! i hate this world! i hate this world!
why does it have to be so FCUK up la
i just hate it so much,how i wish i could just end my life,maybe i should)=
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

2005-08-04T20:54:00.000+08:00

blog invasion by kknd.

bahh as we all can see,cherish yew is seriously too lazy
to blog.and she ask me help her to.what crap right.im just being nice la.
CHERISH!!!!BLOG PLEASE.thank you.

2005-06-23T23:55:00.000+08:00

is it gonna be difference this time?;

back after such a long time((=
do i hear some claps??
laughs!

INITIAL D is a damm nice show to watch!
very worth your money((=
i give it 5popcorns/5popcorns
its really FUNNY and EXCITING
go catch it ((=

today was fun
was something like a movie marathon
first we(mel,sham and me) watch intial D thenafter we watch alot like love
and after we jus start wandering around from ps to lucky plaza
we jus walk all the way there-laughs

and im done here,kinda brief
cos i have got NO mood to blog
((=

is this real this time round?;

2005-05-22T20:42:00.000+08:00

living life to the fullest;

phew...
m so tired,jus came back from mugging for my chinese
have to really mug already
jus pass the chinese Os
and be done with it((=
prays hard!!

my whole body injured can
because i went for tkd
after such a long long time of not going
and go there only
got tournament sparring
and i the first bout la
how cool haha!!
and now ended up wit bruises and all haha!
but it was great la
should have more of those((=
and before tkd,got cellgroup
and beth and yuanbing leading cell
while charissa lead worship
and dora and me lead icebreakers
cos sampoh at retreat,serene sick and gloria sick also
hope they get well soon,prays hard!!
but nonetheless,cell was fun!!
and i was glad they enjoyed icebreakers
haha!!

and for now im rotting
i think i gonna fall sick soon))=
anyway,anyone got songs to intro??
so i can go download((=

and before i forget,

GERMAINE CHOW JIAMIN IS THE BIGGEST BIMBO

AND SHE IS THE BIMBO OF MY BLOG

GERMAINE YOUR A BIG BIMBO,YOU PIGBRAIN

HAHA!! AND YOUR CHILDISH((=

BUT PLS BE GLAD YOU SEE YOU NAME HERE

COS ITS SELDOM I DO THIS((=

2005-05-16T15:54:00.000+08:00

where were you;

haha its been ages since i been online
cos of the exams and all
but i've not been studying
instead i did productive playing and sleeping and eating
haha!! and of cos i reap what i sow
and i've been failing all the exam papers tt i have got back
grreeat isnt it?? ))=
and now tt im online
i feel lazy
too lazy to type or anything
or perhaps i jus got nothing to say
so i guess tts for my lastest entry((=

when i needed you;

2005-05-08T00:53:00.000+08:00

its my life;

-laughs
finally here to blog an entry
to keep my blog from dying((=
what shall i blog??
alright here goes:
this whole week was quite alright
lots of laughter,tempers thrown
sadness,confusion,just lots of emotions thrown in...
tue did not went to sch
for wed was mid year paper
so stayed home and study,
but ended up at dora's house to study
-laughs and i got quite a few books to keep me entertain
wed was officially the start of my mid-year
and it was eng((=
hope for the best((=
then after school went home to slacked
and after off the meet beth at the supermart to shop for dinner
yummy,haha
a very funny day,laughs till i fell on the floor pls
haha!!
and i only study a bit for my exam on thur
which was math and geog
but was quite okay,should be can pass((=
and chi on fri!! and it was prelim,i din know
haha!! and i didnt study!!
went esplanade on friday also
ended up in town
and me melanie and sharon took neos!!
nice nice((=
today was funny((=
actually suspose to watch house of wax at ps
but i was late so ended up at marina square to watch
and it was nc16!!actually can go in wan
then the person see again then i cant go in!!
so instead we play arcade!!
after service,me beth and sharon went tp to eat our way of eating-laughs
and we also went play arcade again!!
spend dont know how much can!!
laughs

my life's in a mess
happiness is just a mask i put on
but inside me is different
if only i could let go of it
jus why is my life so complicated...
trust is just a word so freely used
you never know how much that word of trust could break...
whats trust??how much can it stand for??
just fuck everything around
it doesnt matter anymore...
i hate my life;jus leave me alone

get out;

2005-04-29T17:06:00.000+08:00

why why why???;

who is the person
every child would want love from??
who is the person u run to for help??
or jus someone to talk??
who is the person susposed to be the
closest to you???
who??
your mum..........

but me??
NO
where is my mum when i needed her
where is she when i need love
where is she when i need someone to talk to??
where?!?!?!
she is right there
but what did she do??
come and comfort me?show me love??
NO.....
she put me down times and times again
always blaming me for things my brother did
come on la,what has one's individual action got to do with me??!?
huh,tell me???
nvr once did she comfort me
instead i got put down really bad
know how that feel?!?!
fuck it!!!
yea yea im always the one whose wrong
the one who teaches my brothers bad thing
come one la
you spoil them rotten la
pure rotten
with no respect whatsoever
and i get blamed for it??!?!?
and now you expect me to show
YOU manners show YOU
respect??
oh man... do YOU even DESERVE it??
know how much i have cried over you??
know how much hurt i got just because of you??
i have nvr nvr gotten love from you before
do you even know that
now you know y i dun like home
now you know??
everytime i did well for something
where's the encouragement i want to get from you??
where??
no where around...
i jus get an "ok,i talk to you later"
and you often demands i talk to you
sorry pls,you do NOT demands tt a person talk to you
when i cried and you ask
i said i was stressed
and how was your reply??
you screamed at me saying
how stress can you get??
i do NOT deserve these from you do you know that?!??!
i love you very much,really very much
or i would not be crying because of these
but do you know??!?!
know how much pain i have gone through??
know how's my life??
sometimes i think why is my life like these
why is it so complicated
i very much wans to hate you
but i cant......

now...i dun even wanna see your face
nor even hear your voice
thats why when my mum talk to me
i will jus go ya..... ya..... ya....
nothing more....
argh... i just cant take it anymore
breaking down
get out of my life

my life's broken because of you;

2005-04-26T18:12:00.000+08:00

the song that reminds me of you*_____

-jumps jumps jumps
m so happy i've got 29/30
for math test
but lost the 1 pathetic mark
due to careless mistake
-laughs

today was school as per usual
its boring me to tears
and im going off to study soon((=
must mug mug mug
must acheive results((=

AND the weather is darn HORRIBLE pls
so HOT and HUMID
i cant stand it
-laughs
its like even after u bathe
u still feel sticky))=
and desiree gave a very good advice
that is to not bathe and put perfume instead
haha she say the french do that
-laughs

i have not heard this song in a long long long time
and i heard it today,my classmate was singing it
and i got reminded of you*
the memories
those feeling and thoughts just rush back
but yes im over you* already
its just memories
-laughs

it keeps playing over and over in my head;

2005-04-24T12:53:00.000+08:00

pit of loneliness;

im getting tired
tired of everything
my life is realli tiring
its wearing me out
i walk alone
but its hard
thoughts have been running through my head
jus randoms thoughts
and its making me think bout lots of things
i may look very happy
but deep down i have all these knot of thoughts and troubles
cos i shared it with no one
cos there isnt anyone

would i find you
would you open up my heart
and see the things in me
would i even find a you* in my life

being/trying to be happy flows in my blood
i love being happy and carefree
shall not let these trouble me((=
and i know that GOD will be there
i will trust in him((=

2005-04-23T23:33:00.000+08:00

its jus me me me;

haha!! m jus bloggin a short entry
and im flying off to dream land=D
haven been getting enough sleep
due to studies and sch
making me wake up
with giddyness every morning))=
m quite stress la
due to the up coming midyear exam
i really wan to do well
i want to prove tt i can do better=DD
so i think starting from now till the exams over
gonna chiong study everyday
but at times still must chill
if not will burn out as said by gloria
haha!!
today went for the survey thingy at town
was quite okay la
the youth were quite approachable and friendly
and after tt was back to chruch then we debrief
haha!! service was alright
then after went parkway to eat
but i din eat la
was very moody and no appetite to eat
aso dunno why...
then jus keep staring in blank space
freak me out too
was jus thinking bout lots of stuff la
haha!!
i thought the entrie was susposed to be short
but it dragged on... haha
will be blogging soon la..
=D

where/when is the you* you* you* entering my life;

2005-04-19T19:56:00.000+08:00

so lonely;im MR LONELY

here to blog!!
cant tell u how bored im
therefore i decided to blog
haha!
the pressure is on
its getting intense
its studies,studies,studies and MORE studies
these days
AND have not been sleeping in class lately
-CLAPS
have been home early and stayed home
such goodies
BUT m going to town SOON jus soon
want to get a shirt i've been eyeing for quite some time
its jus a trip to town
get the shirt
and back home to study
ohmy...

anyway,i realli realli miss tkd
will be going back for training VERY VERY SOON
but must find my belt first
haha!! I LOVE TKD ((=

MID-YEAR IS COMING!!!
STRESS PLS))=
BUT STUDYING CAN BE FUN
AND IM LOVING IT =D
HAHA!!

I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE
MYSELF
SINCE THERES NO ONE ELSE
HAHA!!=DDDDDDDDDDD

haircut soon!!
anyone wanna go haircut together???
=D
have i told u theres lots of things i wan to buy
but m jus waiting for money to drop from the sky
haha!! sounds nice eh
haha!!

i have nobody to call my own;

2005-04-17T00:32:00.000+08:00

plain and simple;

yes im back after nt updating for such a long time
was very lazy to
now got the time so yup
the week was fine
was studying everyday la
and pratically fell asleep
on my study table EVERY NIGHT!!
while doing my works
how exhausted
but i cant rmb much for this week
think my memory card
running out of space already
haha!!
today went for cell
was great
did lots of balloon stuffs
how funny pls
and much photo taking sessions
will post the pics soon very soon
and wah,cant believe it pls
my memory stick got some
photos tt was not susposed to be in there la
so embarassing
(yr noe wat i talking bout)
goodnesssssssss
lala...

oh my...
my mid years coming
very nervous pls
cos i wan to see where i stand for the Os
so ya gonna pia my ass off pls
since when i so studious man??
but nvm hard work pays off
must pray hard =D

will try to update my blog as often
as i can la =DD
and townning soon
one week of townless
is making me bored
haha!!
and and i wan go shopping!!!
dun care
must get cash from mum=DD
grins--

life's been boring
nothing exciting
nothing much
jus a plain and simple life
and its BORING ))=

is my life;

2005-04-06T20:30:00.000+08:00

snap back to reality;get a reality check =D

to vane:
hey gal u know the calling probs
lies with my phone
it always seems off when ppl call
i aso dun get y
im sorry if this happens too often
gotta call m1 to check then...
i aint gonna throw our frenship
away like tt,u know it
the pervious entry wasnt mad or wat
its jus im a tad bit irritated,yea
this isnt a big thing,its jus a misunderstanding
with lots of miscommunication
i aint mad at u
jus irritated
there is a big difference =D
and yes i do feel left out at times
and u know how i like hanging out at town
and all;jus venturing outside
its in my nature
i cant do the same things everyday
u know i look for fun and adventure=D
and i dun go down for recess with u guys
are jus cos im too lazy haa...
lala but i guess we are already speaking to each other rite?
must communicate more
and neway thanks for the box of frenship
we are best fren not jus for now
its gonna last for a lifetime
hey cherry blossom
best frens forever yes?? =D

updates(((=
mon i did not go to school
haha!! cos i was sick
really sick k,had to even stay in for the weekend
lol!!
yesterday went to sch
and got a shock first thing in the morning la
cos there is physic test and i din noe
and the period is right after assembly
my goodness
and yes i really flunked it big time
its like every qus i aso dunno
so jus slept through the whole paper
ohmy... sad case
then after sch met sham in town
actually to go study
but guess wat we ended up doing??
shopping!!!
goodness
and sham was late can;tts good
at least she is later than me=D
aft towning i went to her hs
not scary at all la
so nice aso not messy pls
and i wore her sjc uniform
and she starts taking pic
lol!! she keeps laughing la
but the uniform is nice lo
i like((=
then after went home;reach home at 9=D
today was like so free and easy
alot of free period
and i aso got huge shock today
i din know got chi test today
and the period again is the first two period la
so smart pls
jus completely left the whole hanyupinyi empty
sigh...
can say i flunk almost every test la
so disappointed with myself
-slaps
can somebody jus slap me hard in the face
and tell me to study
im getting afraid of flunkin already
i so seriously dun wanna flunked
really damm damm disappointed in me la
sigh....
must get my engine to start studying already
then after sch met sham again
she is late again haha!!=D
and so surprising we wore green today
so we went around j8 thinking where to eat and study after tt
walk walk walk
then we decided to study at coffebean
but i gave up halfway la
dunno y jus cannot concentrate-bang walls
so in the end we we freezing inside
so decided to go walk around
then after go home lo
went home at 7.30 today
so early rite??
my mum so happy lo=DD
haha!!
tts all folk=D
lol!! very long rite the entry
happy reading!!! =DDDD

lets not play in virtual ((=
i wanna know who you are=D

2005-04-04T13:01:00.000+08:00

tell me who you are;

cleaning out my blog time
haha! alright updates:
fri had sch till 10.30 only
so as usual din go to school
instead head over to sentosa
early in the morning
with fizzy and sharon
and to vane:its not i dun wan to inform u alright
is fizzy early in the morning already called u
but yr phone was off so he dialled mumzie also
but she said u would not be going
so the point was already clear
so i din called u
and u do know we are heading to sentosa
you also could call us wat
get the picture??
if u think yr not giving attitude aso
pls reflect...
a friendship is made by two hands
not one...
alright back to the point:
we reached sentosa maybe bout 10??
and i have nvr seen sentosa so so empty before
there wasnt much eyecandies either
haha!! but we saw this couple
they were liking smoching all the way
from the bus trip till dunno when
so ewwww...
ahaha!
fizzy sharon and me came back from sentosa
with tans!!! but
surprisely not burnt;lucky
haha!! but i aso came back from sentosa
with fever and all la
so cool rite??
big april fool joke!!
had to stay in for the weekends
and today=D
and and and my mum
is coming back today from bangkok
with my stuffs=DDD
i miss my mum la=D

let me join in the game with you=D

2005-03-31T16:29:00.000+08:00

im looking for the one*;

haha=D
my blogs rottin
or rather my blog is forever rottin
this week i have been quite studious
studied the whole of this week
even my tuition teacher stun
thought i got fever=D
haha
mon met sham at cp
was late la haha!!
we went study at mos burger
and she damm self obsessed pls
keep taking pics and more pics
haha!!
tue met sham again at j8 tis time
and m late again=D
not my fault la,must go hm change first wat=D
this time study at coffeebean
and sham studied for her chinese test
while i do chinese compo
her chi damm pro la
keep laughing at my chi=D
haha!!
wed nth much happen
its a boring life i led))=

tml will be going to sentosa!!=DDD
haha!! who wanna come???
msg me k??
dunnno my num,go find out
haha!!
tml gonna be a hot day!!
u know y?? haha
i bet u know the ans=DDD
eyecandies spree!!! lallala

my life;the life i lead
is faded in black and white
jus waiting for the special one
to paint it back to colours=D

but its nvr gonna happen anyway
so yea snap back to reality

the special one to love;

2005-03-20T12:03:00.000+08:00

im looking for an angel;

sorry peeps for not undating
im always like updating after a few days kinda thing
cant blame,cos im too lazy!!
smile!!
haha!!

the holi is quite okay
except for the fact tt i din do my hmwk
how how how??
so gonna die when i return to sch
and and im afraid the sch might catch my tail
though its like super short
but they loving catching
basket only haha!!

went for the synergise conference on thur
which include the planet shakers concert too!!
its like awesome man!!
was jumping throughout the whole concert
and the conference was great like the engage the cross wan
its was like no words to describe la
i did cried la,it jus came out like tt
and i cant stop it
the presence of the holy spirit was super strong can =D
i wanna go for more of it next time
i love God and i will continue to grow in him

haha!!sat was fun too
manage to watch spongebob the movie with sham the 270degrees peep haha!!
was so super retarded la
but its alright la
like the song the groppie the peanut or something
spongebob still a kid!!
so m i!!
haha funny and retarded show
tt explains y sham is retarded too
haha!! cos she wanted to watch tt show
town was basically boring
but i managed to saw alot of fren la
from my previous sch
miss them alot alot!!
like jasmine peiying hailing they all
haha go out soon yea??
promise will go out haha!!!
and i saw germaine,
actually i din realli saw her
cos she was walking past us and i din know
until sham told me isnt tt germaine?
then i turn and i saw i was like ya its her
haha!! she was with julian,they are very sweet tgt
haha!! the whole day was fun la
was like running all ovr the place
haha!! sham keep losing to me on the xbox fighting game la
it exercises yr finger haha!!
think im done =DDD
pls tag my tagboard=DD thanks!!

;to be mine to love with all my heart

2005-03-11T21:22:00.000+08:00

life goes on;the lord will be there
trust in him;he will provide
for the lord's love is so great

haha!! rishie is back!!
lol! i know its been long
but still i did update once in awhile=D
haha! my doodle board is down
how irritating pls
and i dun even know how to fix it
CHERRY BLOSSOM
where are u?? haha
pls help me=DD
and yea we are gonna die tml
someone shoot me=D
ptc=parent teacher conference is up tml
and i bet the tchers gonna so complain me
bout my attitude and all
so sad case pls
but nvm since its a mess i made
i will clear it up =D
i got so much hmwk for the holidays
its enough for 1month holi
pray i will be able to finish it

got so many progs planned for the holi
with extra classes and all
how exciting!!
i wanna cut my hair SOON
smiles smiles smiles
but i dunno wan cut wat
aso dunno go where cut
can anyone help me with this??
i sux at decisions la

i dunno whether to go tml or not leh
to go?or dun go??
which one??
hmmm think think think!!!

i think i wrote enough
will be updating my blog more often
its too died to my liking=D
wish me lucks in ptc
i will survives
haha!!!
and and and i loves green!!!
and M&M
haha!!! =D ((=

2005-02-26T23:57:00.000+08:00

man i dunno wat to say..
alot of emotions running through me
i thought im immune already
but guess wat
i aint tt strong after all
i kept telling myself its alright
im done and over with it
but nah i jus cant
its hard...
i have nvr knew hw hard it was
thanks for teaching me

let there be truth instead of lies